So I finally got a hold of the woman I was going to ask to be my sponsor. When she answered the phone I stumbled around but finally got out the words…”Would you maybe be willing to possibly be my temporary sponsor”? Whew I did it! That wasn’t so hard. “Kristin” she said. “I would love to but my sponsor has told me that I should not sponsor others at this time. I am not sure if you know or not, but I am a licensed therapist and it was getting to be too much for me to council women during the day and after hours as well. I am so sorry! I really would like to but I have to follow orders on this one. Do you have anyone else in mind”? I quickly apologized and responded “No but I am sure I can find someone. Really it’s no big deal. I am so sorry to bother you. I totally understand how busy you are”. God I felt so stupid. She followed up by asking me “So tell me, how have you been”? We talked for about a half an hour. What a fantastic talk too. She was so honest and open and really wonderful to talk to. She made me promise to call her while I was on the lookout for a sponsor. I told her I would. When I got off the phone, it occurred to me, that I had asked someone a question, I had been turned down and really nothing bad happened. It was a revelation for me. Sometimes the answer will be NO and that is okay. I don’t need to drink in fear of hearing no or in disappointment from hearing no. I didn’t die of embarrassment. The world didn’t stop spinning. It was just NO. Nothing more. Nothing less. Thanks God for that gentle lesson that I so desperately needed to learn. Thank you for putting this lovely woman in my path and for the wonderful conversation we had. Now I am ready. Will you please introduce me to MY sponsor?